An End and A Beginning.

I know that for a lot of people me being single now came as a shock. Including me.

But this post isn't for juicy relationship gossip or bashing or anything like that. Its to tell you about what God is teaching me.

Now, when I say that being single is a shock, I mean that I was shocked that we would be willing to end it to follow what we thought God was telling us. It's a hard thing, doing what He asks. It shouldn't be. But it is.

I always knew that there was a chance that the Big Guy could say "no" to my endeavors. I never thought He really would though.

Heartbreak sucks. Its the worst kind of pain I've ever had to endure. But something amazing happens when you follow God's directions blindly: He provides a kind of comfort that could come from no one else.

Through my heartbreak, which was a feeling that I thought I could never get rid of, God reached through my pain and showed me that there is more. There is more in store for me. This pain isn't the end of anything, but the beginning of a new lesson.

I have so many issues that I was neglecting in my life. All it takes to address them though is giving God total control. I use the word "all" tentatively, though, because it is actually an extremely hard thing to do.

I've spent my whole life going from one thing to another, controlling them all as I went. But now that He has taken something so huge away from me, I am learning to give control to Him, like I should have been all this time.

Don't get me wrong. This hasn't been roses and honey for me. It is a slow and painful process. But, with the help of my family, best friends, and above all my Savior, I am making it through.

I don't know what is in the future for me. Or who for that matter. I'm leaving that up to God. Stay tuned though, because I have a feeling that this is the beginning of something greater than I could have ever imagined for myself.

"If then you have been raised with Christ, seek the things that are above, where Christ is, seated at the right hand of God. ² Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth. ³For you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God. ⁴When Christ who is your life appears, then you also will appear with him in glory."

Colossians 3:1-4

Road Trip

So yesterday I got to head over to good 'ole Peru, Indiana to see some lovely girls from school. Peru is not very big and also has very little to do. We had fun anyway :)

After Peru I headed down to Kokomo where I visited my cousin Andrew and his wife, Kristine (who is pregnant! :). I had a lovely chat with them, and Zach and I are hoping to visit next weekend.

Anyway, the drive back was around two hours. Now, I love music, but I just felt different yesterday, like music just wasn't going to cut it. So I decided to ride in silence with the Big Guy Upstairs.

It was amazing. You know how people always say that God speaks in the silence? I don't doubt that that is true. He did something different with me yesterday, though. When I just listened, it actually got me talking. It was like suddenly I was pouring out all these things to Him that I hadn't even known were bothering me. It was crazy.

I was telling Him everything that I was worried about and even making realizations about my life that I couldn't come to before. For instance, I found that all the little things that bother me about a specific person changed when I stepped outside and looked at that specific relationship. It was like suddenly all those things were actually things that I loved about them.

He showed me how blessed I am in many areas of my life. It was just so cool to have that happen. I really encourage you all to try this.

:)