Resolutions fall through.
I had promised myself that this semester would be different, but it is still the same old stuff as before. It makes me sad.
I was thinking today during my Religions of the East class, actually. Instead of learning about Hinduism, I decided to sacrifice one lecture to learning more about my own religion. I read the bible, but what really helped me, I think, was just writing out what I was feeling.
I asked God a lot of questions today. I asked him how it was possible for me to always be wanting more when He has already given me so much: an amazing family, great friends, a man who loves me and wants to marry me someday, and most of all His son, who is always there to shelter me. How could I want any more?
Maybe I'm selfish, or maybe it's just my sinful nature as a human. But I'd really like to quit wanting and start appreciating. The Lord has given each and every one of us so much, and whether it is what we think we want or not, it is what we need. I need to stop worrying about what I want, and concentrate on what I have, which is all I need.
Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you of more value than they? And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?
Matthew 6:26-27
We ARE of more value than the birds. God will take care of it all. He will always give me what I need, and if I am living my life focused on Him, pretty soon what I need will be what I want.
