home.

When I'm home, I put things into perspective. I don't know what it is about home, but something makes me able to think clearer. It's like I want to please my family. And not in an over-achiever-I-can-never-be-good-enough kind of way, but just that I want to do things for them. They bring out my servant heart. Something I struggle to keep in everyday life. I want to keep it though. So I'm glad I get to have this reminder.

So, here I sit, watching Spongebob, waiting for my sister to wake up. Ah, just like old times.

Beautiful.

[big sigh]

There are so many things that God is working in me.

I had a bit of a falling out not too long ago. It was just hard for me to feel that desire to read my bible or the desire to do whatever God wants me to. But, once again, He has renewed me. As He always does.

I just can’t fathom God’s perfect timing and planning. Turns out, all these classes I’m taking while my major is undecided will apply fully to my new major. It’s so cool that God did that. I chose three classes as electives that were just random choices…and I actually needed them for my major!

Things like this are what teach me faith.

“He has made everything beautiful in its time. He has also set eternity in the human heart; yet no one can fathom what God has done from beginning to end." Ecclesiastes 3:11

He made everything beautiful. That includes me. Why is that so hard to remember? Why is it so hard to just listen to God telling me that I am beautiful? I may never know the answer. But, I am always going to strive to remember it.

I was thinking the other day how a song can seriously change your outlook on anything. I can walk to class, listening to Joshua Radin and feel completely relaxed. Next thing I know, the song “Mad World” comes on and I suddenly feel sad and skeptical of humans. Then the song “Beautiful” by Phil Wickham comes on and I feel so thankful for God and everything he has given me. All of this = why I love music so much.

Just some random thoughts. Thought you all might like a post since it has been so long.