again with the changes.

So. I feel a change coming on! This happens to me routinely. I think I'm going to change, take care of my bad habits, and be a better person.

One problem: it never sticks.

It's so frustrating because I feel so empowered when I make a decision to change myself for the better, but then I never stick to it.

I want this time to be different.

I want to actually feel proud of myself for once. I want to be different and see the difference. I want to live the life I should be living for my Creator. I want to be an even better friend, daughter, and sister. I want to be healthy and happy.

Second problem: 'I' was said way too much in that paragraph.

If I want to truly be living for God, I have to stop thinking about myself so much. All of those things would be great to have, but I'll never have them until I stop being so self-centered. I think I can do it. With some help. I've already got an accountability partner to help. That's a good step. But now I need to take it further.

This is my desire
To honor You
Lord with all my heart
I worship You
All I have within me
I give You praise
All that I adore is in You

Lord, I give You my heart
I give You my soul
I live for You alone
Every Breath I take
Every moment I'm awake
Lord, have Your way in me

-"Lord, I Give You My Heart," Micheal W. Smith

Random Thoughts.

So. Here I am on the eve of my graduation party. Am I supposed to feel grown up? Cause I don't.

If anything, I feel the same. Like I'm unchanging.

In some ways I want this summer to last forever. In others, I just want to get it over with and get to college.

The ways in favor of lasting forever are winning.

My hands are cold for the first time in like a week. Its been so flipping hot in my house.

I love Boy Meets World. If I could have that show on dvd, I would be a happy camper.

Why is "happy camper" a saying?

My shirt smells really good.

"My my heart like a kick drum." I like that.

^That sounded like a robot. I am robot.

A few minutes ago, our boat flew 10 feet in the air because of the wind from this storm.

I love thunderstorms.

Design your own background = awesome.

My bed looks really inviting right now.

I want to go to a beach. So bad.

Life is like a box of chocolates.